Oct 28, 2016


So one day, I was on my way to a job interview. My mood was quite troubled due to a series of unfortunate events and the traffic wasn't being supportive at all. I was going to be late for an interview - and that's not good. To cope with this unpleasant situation, I tried to calm myself down by reading some tips to meet the future employer (along with cool outer space stories and fun facts about economy) that someone shared on a Q&A networking site. Dude is pretty cool, I thought. Casually admired him and moved along with my life. But, a cute thing did happen afterwards: I got the job, I moved out and... I met him.

Sep 21, 2016

Jul 24, 2016

The Best Silver Lining

2016 is a train wreck.

Well, at least that was two-months-ago-me who said so. If I wrote this two months ago, the tone of this post would be completely different. I would say downhearted things like “staring at the bloody car crash” or “I’m gonna lure myself to sleep so I can stop crying”. But two months had passed and here I am.... high on life. I'm not saying that everything is going smoothly here; I have to take a deathly route every morning to work (Jakarta and the countless motorbikes, even on sidewalks), I made poor living arrangement decisions (paid rent without even seeing the room first), and money is really tight (I spent too much on magazines and bags). But now, I'm genuinely happy with my current state.

What happened two months ago? I had the worst birthday ever. The reason was clear, but the reason behind that reason was so scattered I literally had to unravel the whole thing with lists, tables and diagrams. I went through the complete five stages of grief to and fro. I sought enlightenment on Quora, cried in front of a stranger on Chatroulette, and read despairing threads on reddit. I even had the guts (and was stupid enough) to go on a trip with the *people involved* despite of what my family and friends said, resulting in six days of everybody assuming I was on a FREAKING diet while the fact was I was too depressed to digest anything. Six days including my birthday. All I did, I did it for a closure. But, you don't chase for closure...closure will eventually come. 

I don't wish the stress upon everyone, but if you haven't experienced a heartbreak (or heartburn, quoted from Alexa Chung's It page about Alex Turner) you might as well be prepared for it. After all, to love is to be vulnerable. Gear yourself up to cry your eyeballs out and wail on your sister's shoulder for weeks (this is the most difficult phase). Open up to your friends and family, because these people are the dearest and your best supporters. Then pick yourself up, distract yourself by doing whatever you've been abandoning all this time because you tend to ignore a lot of things when you are in a relationship. And don't forget to meet new people. What people? Well, Tinder is a real option. After stacks of what-the-hell-is-this profiles, you will find several people who worth the right swipe. Just aim for casual dates, though... don't expect more.

Also, I have learned that you can do something to save yourself from the fatal aftermath: break it off when things start to feel wrong. When you belittle each other, for example. You might drop a tear or two, but it's better than the litre of tears of woe for something that should've ended a long time ago and.... well, finally ends, because of an even uglier cause. And what happens between you two after an amicable end is not even guaranteed to be good, ESPECIALLY if your significant other is a potential self-centred crass. You cannot be friends with someone who talked about proposals but *strategically* dumped you a week later...and even had the nerve to tease you about his new crush. 

Cherish the good ol' moments and that's it. Move along. There are so many new moments to cherish, waiting for you and you only. Mine so far have been a blast: new friends, discovery of cool books and apps, the chance to meet up with people who've been intriguing me for years, solo exploration of the city... and the best silver lining that I could ever had, beyond my frenziest dreams :)) You are a hella lifesaver.

Jun 29, 2016

What I Watched: March - May 2016

I tried to watch as many films and episodes of my favorite TV series as possible for during my hermit days. Above is the list of what I have watched; varies from my attempt to catch up on Sofia Coppola, something I remember from a cinephile magazine ten years ago, adaptation of Murakami, to Grace Kelly's movies (ok I make myself sound like a snob hipster). If you can read my smudged note to Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.....yes, that happened for real.
I couldn't be happier to declare that my hermit days are over, but I still want to make this random movie marathon thing as an obligatory. I hope I can make it, because I will be starting to work for real next month. Been begging to the universe for a decent internet connection at my new place so I can download as many torrents as possible and humanly working hours at the office... (Speaking of office, I'm currently following The Office and man, visualising your life as a deadpan mockumentary really helps you to cope with a mundane life. Does anyone here watch The Office?)

Jun 26, 2016

Freebies! Hand-drawn Desktop Wallpaper

FYI: The most visited post on my blog is the Cupcake Desktop Wallpaper; this freebie set is 4 years old and it still gets hits almost every day. I wonder why...
Anyway, I made some random doodles with colored pencils a few weeks ago. It was the first time since...I don't know, forever. I haven't gotten my hands on Photoshop for drawing-related activities in months (let alone colored pencils...they were literally covered in cobweb when I found them). Feel free to download, and please use them for personal purposes only. Enjoy :)

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Jun 13, 2016

Favorite Bits of Snail Mail

Some of you might know that "snail mail" was a fad back then in 2014 among girls on Instagram. I was a part of it and greedily agreed to be pen pals with around fifteen girls right away, because I was way too excited... Later, I learned that it'd be better to keep in touch only with those whom I'm genuinely interested in.

The first mail I received from the lovely Sarah. Supposed to be the second one, but the real first letter she sent to me was gone with the wind (could be literally, because I had no mailbox back then and the postman always irresponsibly left every incoming mail on the stairway instead). Anyway, you ladies really should give her blog a visit because she has the cutest collection of trinkets, clothes and paper treats!<3 p="">

Favorite items from my good friend Céline, who also happens to be one of the first stranger I followed on Instagram. Met her last December and she turned out to be much lovelier in person! She is one of the best when it comes to hand-picking paper treats ;)

Letters from Madhura are also my favorite. The fact that she is much younger than me and already aced calligraphy, painting with various mediums, paper-cutting and origami-making is.....burdening me, haha! Do check her Instagram feed :)

This set is not a part of my snail mail activity, since they were sent by the most generous Kak Fitri from Secret Staircase along with my purchase. Couldn't be more pleased to buy used books from her store because the prices are reasonable, always thoroughly packaged and...she is simply the sweetest store owner ever. How I hate the fact that I can't allow myself to splurge on books for a really long time :(

Mini prints and postcards that I sent to Kate. I have been admiring her since forever (apart from her uber cool candy-colored hair and drool-worthy outfits, she is also one talented artist and got a really good sense of humour) and dedicated one drawing to her in 2014. The timing was a bit funny though, because right after I posted and tagged her on the drawing, she decided to take a long break from Instagram due to personal reasons. Everybody was heartbroken, me included... but Kate was back around a year later and she reposted my drawing on her Instagram! She also e-mailed me and kindly asked if she could buy it as a print. I didn't allow her to pay anything for it, so I mailed the drawing as a gift (along with additional drawings in my new style because a year has passed...)

(Photo by Kate and Céline)

May 23, 2016


Throughout the years, I secretly had this dream to create an imaginary girl, plan an ideal surrounding for her (complete with detailed city map, apartment's floor plan and family history) and publish stories about her daily activities. Yep, something like Fifi Lapin...I worship the furry fashionista so hard. I love constructing characters and stories, but I suck at writing. I used to make a pile of hand-drawn comic books when I was little, but they are actually a compilation of unfinished crappy stories. My sister always complained every time I told her I got bored with the plot or I made mistake with the protagonist's hairdo, so I had to start over again.
Yet I never got anywhere with the project, until last year. I made two alternatives of the girl's looks, decided to go with the ganache-colored short hair one, and drew several pieces as a test. Apparently, I still didn't feel comfortable with this kind of drawing style and I thought it wouldn't work with this long-term plan. So, I killed the project.

May 12, 2016

Pulau Pari

Lovely little island where everybody rides bicycle everywhere.... I was the only exception.